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Wednesday, April 24, 2002
I don't mind being known as a slacker or a loser or immature or even uncool. But the one thing that I don't want people to think of me as is a disappointment. Monday, I went home for a dentist's appoinment. During my brief visit, I talked with my mother about my life, college, and whatever else she could think to ask of me. When we got to the topic of my scholarships, I tried to find a good way to tell her that I will most likely lose mine after this semester. When I told her, she was very good about not verbalizing it, but I could see the disappointment on her face. Disappointing my mother hurt me. My mother is one of the most -- if not the most -- important and influencial person in my life. I wish I was motivated enough to be everything my mother knows I can be. But wishing does absolutely shit in real life, so I sit here wasting my time.
| Mr. McBastard | 4:39 PM | | |
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